Wednesday, January 02, 2008

Why I Believe I Have Asperger's Syndrome (Or Something Similar)

Hello, everyone. I haven't posted lately because I've had a lot of personal problems lately and been too depressed. But in my last post I said I'd explain why I think I have Asperger's Syndrome, and I'm not going to allow myself to post on anything else until I do it. So here it is.

Here is the short version. All my life I've felt different from everyone else, with a wide variety of cognitive, emotional and social problems, but I had no idea why. Several years ago my neighbor's son was diagnosed with Asperger's. She had never heard of this before, so she asked me to research it for her. So I did. I'm no hypochondriac, but the more I read, the more I felt the writers were describing me. I didn't just match some of the diagnostic criteria. I matched nearly all of it. All my weird quirks, all my years of trying to fit in without success - it was all there.

I've never been professionally diagnosed. When I was a child parents knew I was different, but in those days no one thought little girls could have this disorder. Now I can't afford a diagnosis. But the similarities are just too many to be coincidence.

When I started this post I was planning to go into a detailed description of each of my Aspie characteristics. But I then I remembered the scores of people I've bored to tears with long-winded monologues on my pet obsessions, and thought better of it. If anybody is really interested I'll do it later. Otherwise, just google Asperger's Syndrome, read the symptoms, and you have a pretty good idea of what I'm like. It's got to be Asperger's or something very like it.