Saturday, March 15, 2008

Thank God Almighty, We Have Wheels At Last

'm a bit down today but I'm determined to post anyhow. I doubt if anyone is still listening out there, and I know it's my own fault, but I've been under the weather lately. A few weeks ago I had an infection. I didn't want to spend the money for the doctor (she does sliding scale, so it doesn't cost much, but even that little is a lot to us). By the time my husband made me go I was so sick I couldn't decide whether to go to the hospital or just save myself the trouble and die. The nurse-practitioner wasn't sure either but she gave me an industrial-strength antibiotic and in three days I felt almost human again. It could yet recur but thankfully I'm still free of it.

Also I've been really depressed. Maybe it's because of our financial situation, or perhaps my medicine isn't working anymore. I've felt suicidal a few times, but so far nothing has come of it.

Last month we found out it would take at least $1100.00 to make our old suburban run again. It might take a lot more. We had a small tax refund and a friend of my husband's was willing to lend us some money for a used car. So we finally bought a 1991 Volvo 740. Thankfully it works well so far.

I'm still trying to find another job. Unfortunately people don't line up to hire middle-aged ladies who have trouble understanding directions. The fact that I have an alomost paralyzing fear of filling out applications, and do it badly, doesn't help either. If you're so inclined, prayers would be appreciated.

Finally, a very belated thanks for all the links to asperger's sites I've received. I'm still checking them out as I have the energy. And thank you for taking the time to leave a comment. Even if I'm only talking to myself it's okay. But it's good to know someone else is reading this.

Sorry about the long, depressing post. I'll try to do better later.

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